I enjoy reading - honestly I do.  All kinds of books - fiction, self-help, cookbooks, biographies, magazines, religious, new-age...you name it I love to read it....Well, to be honest, lately it seems like I enjoy buying books more than I do actually reading them.  I have a stack of books at home that I want to dive into.  Hmm....When and where am I going to find the time to do that?! I've been carrying the same two books in my work bag for a month now and haven't really cracked either one.  I have a stack of books in my desk at work that I intend on reading.  I have a bookshelf full of books at home that I want to read as well.  I think I need to stop buying books, and read the ones I have.

What books do I want to read - Here's a few:

The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle
The New Earth - Eckhart Tolle
Losing It - Valerie Bertinelli
Food & Mood - Elizabeth Somer
Clapton's Guitar - Allen St. John
The Secret Things of God - Dr. Henry Cloud
Rich Dad, Poor Dad - ?
The Bible - God

I tried diving into one book last week - The Oprah bookclub pick of the month, Eckhardt Tolle's The New Earth.  it seems lime it should be a great read.  But, much like everything else, my attention span seems so limited lately that I find myself reading the same page two or three times.  I just get distracted so easily....My mind has a tendency to wander - I feel as if I lack focus in many areas of my life.  That's something I have been trying to improve upon.

I've even tried books on CD and my mind still wanders. Grrr.....

I've been trying to work on my focus - and that's been difficult.  I have been having trouble staying in "the now".  I'm constantly thinking about what I need to be doing, or what I have to do the following day, or chores, or work, or working out, or relationship stuff, or money or....well, you get the idea - you name it, and I'm probably thinking about it....all within the same 5 minute period.

I want my mind to be still....to be in the moment....to just "be".  That is so much harder than I ever thought it could be.  It's like I'm not doing justice to whatever task is at hand because I'm always thinking about the next thing and the next thing.  

I know this doesn't have much to do with fitness/diet....but then again maybe it does.....I have realized this past week as I am on the elliptical of in a session, that I need to be present and think about what I am doing.  It's easy to get on the elliptical and simply go through the motions, content to do exactly what I did the day before, and the day before, and the day before that. 

Yesterday, I figured out that even though I am going into FT everyday for cardio, I'm not making the most of my time there.  If I am going to devote 20 to 25 minutes a day to cardio, I need to make it the best 25 ass-busting minutes of cardio that I can do.  I think my results have been stalled because I have lost the focus - the drive to get things done and done right.  (Well, the lack of focus and the over-eating stuff too, but they go hand-in-hand, I think).

One of my new goals, is that when I get to FT in the morning, I want to attack my cardio with a renewed spirit.  I don't want to settle for putting forth the minimum amount of effort.  I know that what I get out of workouts is hugely based on what I put into them.  I need to work harder, sweat more, become more intense...more focused....The quality of my life depends on it. 

I've come too far in my journey....And although it seems like I've reached a brick wall, there's good news....The good news is that I know that because of the knowledge I have gained at Fitness Together though great trainers and friends, I have the tools need to get through, or over that damn wall.

I'm not giving up - I have a lot of fight in me, and I'm ready to break down that freakin' wall....One day and one brick at a time if need be.

Love and stuff  -

Hey Tommy ~ We have know each other a long time. You are a knowledgable guy. I know it is hard to focus on just sitting there and reading a book. But there is a time when you have to push yourself to give your mind a break from everything that is happening around you. It will take time. Maybe start with reading a few pages. Then work your way up from there. Remember baby steps. You can not conquer the world of reading in one sitting.
You have come a long way. Do not beat yourself up. Look at the people on the biggest loser show this season. They are going through the same thing that you already went to. Revisit the steps that you start with. Keep journaling. Keep writing down everything you eat. Make time to read 3 pages a day. Good Luck and Bear Hugs! You Omax Buddie ~ Ann:)

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